“I Live in the Dark; It’s the Only Place Someone Like Me Can Shine.”
The central theme is about impermanence and transformation, with the message: to move forward and be whole, you have to embrace your past as you transform it into something that gives you wisdom and compassion, especially in a time when there’s an abundance of dehumanization circling around the issues of mental health, addiction, and highly sensitive people.
Many people are being told to forget the past and believe this to be true in moving forward with their lives. However, sometimes this is all that is said, leaving us to take it literally. Thankfully, this task could only be done in a sappy yet insightful hipster movie. Nevertheless, doctors and therapists repeatedly tell us not to dwell in the past, particularly negative events. I don’t disagree with them; however, I do believe more explanation is needed here.
To paraphrase the quote from the great philosopher George Santayana, those who do not remember their past are condemned to repeat their mistakes. Hence, the importance of understanding history in order to free humanity from the Wheel of Samsara (karma); just as individual souls learn their repeated lessons over many lifetimes, eventually freeing themselves, contributing to the greater collective consciousness.
I believe there comes a point in everyone’s life where their past will re-emerge in an overwhelming takeover of thoughts, feelings, and emotions. In this period, we are given a choice, to hang onto these, or finally let go. The choice is subtle but we are given as much time as we individually need to become aware of it. We can continue acting as if our past actions and choices don’t matter and drown them out with antidepressants, alcohol, drugs, sex, gambling, food, TV, video games, fitness, AA, work, bullying, anything that keeps us distracted from looking at ourselves, at that empty void inside all of us. The thing is, there is no void. It’s only an illusion that we have created to bound us to this wheel of never ending mistakes, until we finally choose to do something different—to look back at our past mistakes and learn from them, knowing that within each event lies a lesson that must be learned in order to grow; to be the best of who we are meant to be.
There’s a quote by Elizabeth Wurtzel, author of Prozac Nation and More, Now, Again: A Memoir of Addiction, that states, “Age is a terrible avenger. The lessons of life give you so much to work with, but by the time you’ve got all this great wisdom, you don’t get to be young anymore.”
In writing this collection of memoirs, I’ve discovered many things about myself and the world I live in, including all of this to not only be true, but to be the first step in living the life I’ve always wanted to live.
If you’re struggling in life, whether it be from addiction, loss of a loved one, depression, loss of worth, or just feeling different from your peers and not knowing what’s wrong—you’re not alone. Talk to me… I’ve been there, and there is a way out. My desire and purpose in this life is to help others understand certain life struggles by offering my experience and knowledge from reading/studying over 150 books, ranging from recovery, addiction (nonfiction/memoirs), Buddhism, ancient knowledge, metaphysics, pseudoscience, Law of Attraction, Catholicism, Christian alternative, Judaism, Taoism, personal transformation, self-help, etc.. I want to share my thoughts and discovered wisdom to help you look within and find that light inside you that’s been suppressed since a time you may or may not remember. .
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